Dear Diary, October 13th, 1957
I’ve been feeling horrible for the past few weeks. About a month ago i started seeing other women ,the problem is that i am a married man and that i also have 2 loving kids. Not only have i been cheating on my wife but i also got involved in doing drugs like weed and cocaine because lately i’ve been feeling really stressed out. I honestly have no idea what i am doing to my life.
I have no idea why i turned to weed and cocaine for support when i was feeling stressed, i should have just talked to my wife or friends and ask for their opinion and support. But for now i think that i shouldn’t tell anyone because they will definitely tell me to stop but thats what i find hard because when I take drugs they make me feel useful and makes me feel like a better person because i don't think about anything else in the world, any of the problems that I or anyone else are going through, i just think about myself. Also, if someone finds out that i’m taking drugs, the word will probably go around and people will start talking and saying that i’m a bad person and have bad impressions of me and it could possibly ruin my whole career and future. I know that i should stop immediately because before I know it I could be addicted to it or taking it regularly like an everyday meal. I have honestly tried to stop but its really for me because its the only thing that makes me feel worthy and alive.
I’m starting to worry about myself because I feel like I don't know what i’m doing with my life. It really scares me to think of the possibility that my wife and kids find out what I have truly become. They’ll probably think that i’m just a bad person and a bad influence to my kids and to all my followers. I’m also scared that my wife finds out that i’ve been cheating on her for a while now. I just hope that i’ll find a way to clean up this mess that i made of myself.
Martin Luther King,
I’ve been feeling horrible for the past few weeks. About a month ago i started seeing other women ,the problem is that i am a married man and that i also have 2 loving kids. Not only have i been cheating on my wife but i also got involved in doing drugs like weed and cocaine because lately i’ve been feeling really stressed out. I honestly have no idea what i am doing to my life.
I have no idea why i turned to weed and cocaine for support when i was feeling stressed, i should have just talked to my wife or friends and ask for their opinion and support. But for now i think that i shouldn’t tell anyone because they will definitely tell me to stop but thats what i find hard because when I take drugs they make me feel useful and makes me feel like a better person because i don't think about anything else in the world, any of the problems that I or anyone else are going through, i just think about myself. Also, if someone finds out that i’m taking drugs, the word will probably go around and people will start talking and saying that i’m a bad person and have bad impressions of me and it could possibly ruin my whole career and future. I know that i should stop immediately because before I know it I could be addicted to it or taking it regularly like an everyday meal. I have honestly tried to stop but its really for me because its the only thing that makes me feel worthy and alive.
I’m starting to worry about myself because I feel like I don't know what i’m doing with my life. It really scares me to think of the possibility that my wife and kids find out what I have truly become. They’ll probably think that i’m just a bad person and a bad influence to my kids and to all my followers. I’m also scared that my wife finds out that i’ve been cheating on her for a while now. I just hope that i’ll find a way to clean up this mess that i made of myself.
Martin Luther King,